I cant survive anymore, I'm depressed and scared to death I will loose my family, my house, my mental state. My sister lost half her heart last year at 46, my daughter had triple bypass as age 32 and suffers from chronic back pain. Sister Bonni rushed to Cleveland clinic internal bleeding. Mine is stenosis. But my poor mother went into the hospital a week before thanksgiving. She is a fighter but it's always one step ahead and six back. She had massive stroke, blood clots and so forth. She and I bought our first home 2 years ago And I'm not going to be able save it. She hadn't paid bills in months. She's in a speciately hospital. The worry about my family is too much I don't know what to do. I have several medical conditions that I have on hold so I can help all of them. There wont be Christmas here this year. I just want how you keep you sanitiy when they can die at anytime, any minute. I just sit in the house and stare at the tv to try to block the hurt.
-melody evans, 12/13/2013